Spring Bucket List #3: Have a Barbecue

Ah Memorial Day weekend. The first weekend of the year to barbecue. And this year, Mom outdid herself and we stuffed ourselves silly.

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Also, I tried banana pudding for the first time:

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This shit is dangerous as hell

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And tasty as hell.

 

Fuck yeah, trifle!

 

  1. Go on a Picnic
  2. Go on a Hike
  3. Have a Barbecue
  4. Visit the Zoo
  5. Make Smoothies
  6. Visit the Central Library downtown
  7. Feed the Ducks
  8. Visit a New Park
  9. Have an Afternoon Tea
  10. Bake Cupcakes
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Spring Bucket List #7: Feed the Ducks

This adventure found me at Lafayette Park on a glorious day:

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Amazingly enough, it did not rain. Just dark and not crowded, which was great.

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When I first arrived, all of the water fowl were on the opposite side of the little pond/lake/body of water. But I started chucking small pieces of bread in, and that got their attention.

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Goslings!

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Then it attracted everyone’s attention and suddenly it was time to go

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  1. Go on a Picnic
  2. Go on a Hike
  3. Have a Barbecue
  4. Visit the Zoo
  5. Make Smoothies
  6. Visit the Central Library downtown
  7. Feed the Ducks
  8. Visit a New Park
  9. Have an Afternoon Tea
  10. Bake Cupcakes

Spring Bucket List #8: Visit a New Park

Yes, I have 10 days to go, and 10 posts to write.

Luckily for me, I’ve already knocked out 7 items on my list.

I’ve just been too lazy to write.

Get ready for the onslaught.

 

The park. Benton Park. Of all the times I’ve passed by going to Shameless Grounds or Indigo Wellness, I never actually stopped by.

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And there were so many good dogs. I made quite a few friends, and one new boyfriend. I should have taken some photos of the puppies, but some people are weird about that sort of thing. Oh well.

Spring Bucket List

Hello!

Been a while, eh?

I’m looking to change that.

That’s why I’m doing a bucket list. It will make me blog more. I have a couple of blog ideas, it’s just that when I get home from work everything goes right out of my mind. I need to be better about that. I also plan on doing monthly round ups at the end of each month. I need to be better about that, too.

So! Spring Bucket List. I was thinking from now until June 1st.

Then I look at today’s date.

So I rethought my deadline date and it is now June 20th, as the Summer Solstice is June 21st. That’s when we’ll do the Summer Bucket List.

Enough rambling, on to the list:

  1. Go on a Picnic
  2. Go on a Hike
  3. Have a Barbecue
  4. Visit the Zoo
  5. Make Smoothies
  6. Visit the Central Library downtown
  7. Feed the Ducks
  8. Visit a New Park
  9. Have an Afternoon Tea
  10. Bake Cupcakes

 

I’m excited! Are you? I’m visiting the library because I still haven’t been since the renovation. And on almost every list I saw was “bake cupcakes”. I’m sure I can find a springy recipe.

Alright, see you guys soon!

Work is Not so Great at the Moment

Remember back in October when I got promoted and I was so super stoked about it?

 

Yeah, that joy has been destroyed now.

 

I am the backup for my team, so I have been learning a bunch of different things. I had thought things were going swimmingly (because NO ONE had told me different) only to be pulled aside by my boss last Friday (23rd) to be told that I am failing. Hard.

 

Did I mention she did this right before my vacation? As in, we leave the office at 4:30 and she pulled me aside at 4:05.

 

Apparently, if I was more self- aware, I would have seen this coming (according to her). She had a stack of errors. (Five months in, this is the first I’m hearing of any of them) She had to mention the other new girl who started a week after me had her job down pat after only a month on the job. She asked if I liked my job (as if I’m self-sabotaging or something? Like I’m intentionally not doing a good job because I hate it here?) and if I got overwhelmed. Yes, I get overwhelmed. This is not work I’ve ever done before! And she knows this! She knew this when she hired me! And no, she doesn’t check on me. I guess at the skill/salary level we’re at she doesn’t think she should have to. And maybe she’s right. I barely speak to her. This is not an exaggeration- there are days when the only thing I will say to her will be “Good morning.” Apparently, even though no one has told me different, I should still know that I’m fucking up. Also, if I ask two different people the same question, they will get offended as if I doubt their world. That’s what it is. Not me double-checking and clarifying and the first person isn’t available so I ask the second person. She says we’re a cohesive team. No we are not. You guys are cliquey mean girls in a high school movie. I can hear you all gossping and giggling.

 

I guess I was spoiled by my previous boss. She had monthly meetings with everyone on her team. She would let us know what we were doing well at, what we were doing poorly at, and what she wanted us to focus on. I always knew where I stood.

 

I guess I do now. I’m massively fucking up. At everything.

 

Of course, I started to cry. I was a wreck. She said that I took a leap of faith to get my job, so she was going to take a leap of faith on me. She said that we’re okay, and that she believes soon this will all be a distant memory.

 

I go back to work tomorrow. I dread it. I’m going to go in there and work harder and do my damndest (even though I already thought I was) but now I worry that I’m not good enough. And even if I am able to improve and do really well in my actual evaluation, this will never be a distant memory.

 

This was cruel. Who pulls a person aside a half hour before they go on vacation to drop this kind of bomb? Why wait so long to let a person know they aren’t doing well? Why not help them right when you spot a mistake? I don’t feel as if I can trust my boss after this.

 

But the worst thing of all, was that she made me doubt myself. She made me feel like I was too stupid to do my job (and I hate using that word because it’s ableist), like I should have just stayed where I was and never tried to aim higher, that I don’t belong in this position because I’m just not good enough. I was a wreck when I got home that night. I was incredibly sick. Stress about getting fired, worry about the future, heartbreak that I wasn’t doing as well at a job I genuinely like as I thought I was.

 

I don’t think I’ll ever forgive her for that.

 

Now, for the first time in five months, I dread going into work.

 

 

Happy Thanksgiving!

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Gravy volcano never gets old. ;o)

 

Well, happy Thanksgiving my dears! I hope you all are doing well. My holiday was lovely. Slept in a little- as much as a hungry cat will allow. I had a cup of tea for breakfast and started a new book, Another Man’s Treasure. The lack of breakfast caught up with me at Aunt Debra’s, where I completely stuffed my face. It was sooooo goooood.

Mr Bean Thanksgiving

I’m home now, and I’ve been in my jim-jams for the last four hours. I’ve been knitting and drinking tea and watching Bake-Off. I am knitting two things at once- Bluebirds of Happiness, and scarves for the homeless. Two simple, small pieces that are being knit 10 rows at a time. 10 rows on one, switch projects and do 10 rows on the other. I don’t have any dessert, but I do have a recipe for chocolate chip cookie in a mug. I have made it many many many times (I have the recipe memorized) and I swear by it.

Anyways, all of you take care of yourselves. And if you are going shopping later, may you get all the deals you want.

General Update

I know, I fell behind again. I know. But we had a big dinner last night and apparently I’ve reached the age where after any kind of sizeable meal I fall asleep on the couch at 7:30. So I figured I would do a quick update now, then later this afternoon/evening I would get back into my horror watching. Also, I’m only behind one day. If you follow my Instagram, you’ll see I did watch a movie on Thursday. I just didn’t blog about it.

I got a promotion!

Excited

It only took ten years. I now work back office, which means NO CUSTOMERS. Isn’t it awesome? It is for me! I’ve been working since I was 15 (19 years), and it’s all been customer service- mall jobs, Hallmark, grocery store. Now I’m doing office work. I have a little cubicle and everything! I get to decorate it how I like, and it’s going along slowly but surely. Monday was a bank holiday, I had two days of off-site training and two days of work. I have no idea what I’m doing or why, but I’m having a ball! It helps having an excellent support group, and my team is amazing. So are the people who don’t even work in my department.

I’m still knitting away! I know I’m super behind in posting my projects. I’m even bad about updating my Ravelry. I’m currently knitting two secret projects for a friend, so I can’t mention them here. I’ll try to better about posting projects as I go.

I am still baking. Yes, I am watching the new season of Bake Off. I have a lot of thoughts about it, so that will be its own special post after this season is over. I’m also watching the Great Australian Bake Off over on YouTube, which is pretty fantastic in its own right. Matt Moran is super cool, and I want Maggie Beer to be my other grandma. Last year James said he thought Maggie probably smelled like cookies and kindness, and I’ve decided he’s right.

Matt and Maggie

We’ve bundled Lauren off to college. When did that happen? She is so damn smart. She wants to be a doctor. She even has a little squad already (her words, not mine) and they all study together. Chemistry is her toughest class and Chinese is her favorite and I would gush about how proud I am but I’m not that gross.

Winter is over a year old now and is as active as ever. We call it rampaging. Richie and his best friend Tim actually created a cell phone game called Rampage Kitty. You play as a kitten and your job is knock over as much stuff as possible. Download it! (Only 99 cents)

Is that…. everything? I think it is, for the moment. Okay. Hopefully I’ll be back to the horror blogging tonight.